happy 3 friends

おさしぶりだ！！

2008-03-28T08:53:00.006+08:00

このblogを死んだ。
まず、ごめなさい、日本語で書いているんだ。。でも、面白いと思うん、誰もわからないから。卒業から今まで、もう二年だね。。いろいろあった。それで、友達もかわった。

皆大学に行ったり、仕事をしたりしました。私まだ毎日家で、だんだんおたくになりました。でもね、本当に今年は大学に行きたい！もう一年ぐらい待っただ。大学卒業したあと、日本へ行く望みます。ここで大嫌いから。ああ。。大変だ、お金無くて、そして、日本に死ぬかもしれない。

最悪だ。

あっ、二人も元気？本当に、さしぶりだ、私のことを忘れるだろ？！
この文をわかったら、電話を掛けってください！それじゃ！

2007-12-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

happy holidays!

xoxo,
fer

2007-07-15T05:24:00.000+08:00

[J] With the big L across her forehead

Sorry for the the sudden lousiness I felt.
(Cause I seem to be at losing ends, AGAIN!)
Actually I was looking really forward to school until I was walking back home, I started to realise... Desmond haven contacted me for a week. Call me "weak" I really see this big L across my forehead, probably on every part of me.
Did I told anyone that I know it won't work out?
I doubt I really like him either, a crush maybe, but I felt wasted somehow.
I keep doubting it lor. His frequency level compared to mine. We can't even communicate cyberly. Not even sms. & he smokes. NONONONONO
I actually mind him in many ways.
But I felt really guilty... I read his ex gf's diary which he did warned me of. I think he kinda saw me reading it. The last time I see him. NOW, I'M THE MEANIE. Cheebye
Why did I ended up, looking like the desperate-for-his-love- idiot? Now, i sounded like one. No way! Fuck it.

The main point is,
I want to push him out of my life.
Obviously he must be pulling my leg when he confessed to me. So in his eyes, I'm probably another young girl that was easily cheated on. Oh, fcuk it. Thankfully, NOTHING HAPPENS. Anyway, that is almost out of question. My principles is at least 2 years of relationship.
Why?
Why do I look like the one on losing ends?
All the fucking time.
I don't want to.
I have enough at PJC.
I'm moving onwards to Nafa.
Can anyone guarantee how well I will do? Pissed off **

No more. Pls be obsessed abt new school. HOOOOOOOOOORAY

I'm okayy after the rantings. Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-05T04:20:00.000+08:00

Jackie rants:

Heng! Heng! What happened?
Phone me immediately. You people. SOS me. My phone is made for you guys.

Anyway, this Friday is my last day at work. SOO... nest entire week, we can so SUNTAN! So prepare alot of bucks.... sigh! :( I'll try to borrow my friend's card.

READ my lastest environmental no-brainer entry. Life's more than what we see.

2007-07-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

well, we know that.. it's just a matter of compromising with each other. afterall, what are friends for, right?

open the window, take a deep breath and smile. (: (: (:

2007-07-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

heng:

friendship needs to be nurtured with love, concern and encouragement, not criticism, sarcasms and self-indulgent talk of one's life..if a friendship is based on the latter 3 things, then the friendship shall cease to exist immediately because there is no point in continuing it, a friendship shall also not contain any ill mannerisms:
1) eating other people's food like its your own
2)going on and on about one's life
3) talk without using the damned brain of yours

2007-06-28T11:00:00.000+08:00

this blog is dead man, haha.. hmmm been such a long long time since i've blogged.. read fer's blog, waa.. weddings! haven been to one since when i was... say 10 years old? sounds funny but don it make you want to get married too? hahaha..

i wonder what kind of men the 3 of us will marry? who's gonna be the first to get married amongst the 3 of us? hahaaha.. ah shit, i'm late for my jap class, gotta go!

2007-06-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

You Are An INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.
You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.

At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

What's Your Personality Type?

since everyone did it, i did it too. haha.. right.

2007-06-07T08:30:00.000+08:00

heng:

You Are An INTJ

The Scientist

You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems.
Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized.
You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others.
Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you.

In love, you are always striving to improve your relationship.
You have strong ideas of what love should be like.

At work, you excel in figuring out difficult tasks. People think of you as "the brain."
You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

How you see yourself: Reasonable, knowledgeable, and competent

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Aloof, controlling, and insensitive

What's Your Personality Type?

2007-06-06T05:19:00.000+08:00

SHOCK SHOCK SHOCK SHOCK,
lucky! there's an I behind. Still gt hope
Amen.

Your True Love's Name Is

Kyle I.

What's Your True Love's Name?

2007-06-06T04:31:00.001+08:00

Jacqueline Koh, SO TRUE!

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!
In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.
At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.
How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding
When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's" Your Personality Type?

2007-05-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

偶像剧 to watch at work, hahaha!
斗鱼
换换爱
天使情人
蔷薇之恋
转角遇到爱
十八禁不禁
实习医生格蕾 <33

2007-04-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

sometimes i feel like i'm threading on thin ice all alone. i get so tired that i just wanna shout, give a hard jump and fall right in.

not that school is wearing me out (it's coming soon), i just feel jaded. being surrounded by people sometimes feels like a noose around my neck.

yesterday while waiting for the train to come, i wondered how it'd feel like if i standing on the track instead of the platform. don't worry i have no intention of doing so, i was just letting my imagination run wild.

life and its paradoxes.

2007-04-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline.
Heng, update a bit leh. I know you online everyday! Put yr husbandSSS' photos?
I'm gonna have money soon, then we can go learn japanese together! I promised to buy u lotsa of your husbandsss on yr bday.
Fer, update too! when you're free in the weekends, gimme a ring. year3, GAN-BA-DERE!

Shrugs, i'm only free on wkends, unless i get fired.

Dont u all love quizes??? 40 Q&As
1. Your name plus "ness"? jacq-ness
2. Two feelings at the moment? Drowsy and Tasteless
3.What are you listening to right now? Movement of wind
4. Done anything you regret so far this week? I drank coke when i had cough (=
5. Describe where you are right now? Livin room. Hot and stuffy.
6.The highlight of your week? I'm DAMN ill
7. What are you craving to have right now? Sashimi, any time, any moment
8. Who were the last people you ate with? My sister
9. What are you scared of? Bring penniless
10. Last movie you watched? Shooter
11. Last song you sang out loud? some jap songs
12. What is your heritage? Teochew, chinese
13. Are you thinking of someone right now? Nope
14. Who is the last person you talked to? Mommy
15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer? Zwinky, egame
16. Have you changed much this year? Think so
18. Do you like moms? I like mom. singular.
19. Hug or kiss? Huggies
23. Who was the last person to text/message you? Poony
24. Where was the last place you went besides where you are? Clinic =.=
25. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb? YES. c'mon i'm equally hot
26. Do you speak any other language other than english? Cheena and teochewyy
27. Last thing you watched on TV? Clueless
28. Do you dress for style or comfort? Both
29. Name someone with the same b-day as you? My junior and a pri sch fren
30. Ever had a drunken night in mexico? nope.
31. What’s the craziest thing you've done? Everythinglor(s)?
-- black, white, red, brown and army green.
32. Favourite colour(s)? White
33. What's your favorite cereal character? This is chim-mi-logy
34. What is your favorite Michael Jackson song? 0.0
35. Who do you love? Friends and family
36. Any plans right now? Drop dead after this (: (:
37. What are your plans for tonight? Tuition
38. What are you looking forward to tomorrow? Lunchtime
39. Last time you smiled? Saturday
40. Who do you wanna be with right now? Some sugar-daddySSS to pay for my luxurious shoppin trips

2007-04-06T02:32:00.000+08:00

JACQUELINE working in 3 days. After 2mths of slackin. Urgh.

1. Does anyone know your password? KimberleyKohKiaLeng
2. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds? Cant remember
3. Are you an emotional person? EMO.
4. Do you like your name? XuHuiZhen
5. Do you believe in love at first sight? Uhmm
6. Ever felt jealous of your friend? I'm a big sour apple
7. What was the last thing you did? Breathe
8. who's next to you? Casper, e ghost
9. Who was the last person you ate with? TanXingHua aka TanHuiHui
10. What song are you listening to right now? Aslyn: Thats's when iloveu
11. How's the weather right now? Clueless
12. Last person you called today? Cindy
13. Last song you sang? Some song tt i compose in my brain
14. Last time you danced? 4hrs ago
15. Lost a friendship over something stupid? DUMB
16. Last thing you ate? O'briens Irish Sandwich
17. Been really depressed before? Tonnnes
18. Faked being sick to miss school? Trillions
19. What time did you wake up today? 330pm
20. Current taste? Icy
21. Who is the person that posted this survey? Jennifer
22. What are you wearing right now? Spag top & fbt
23. Are you too shy to ask anyone out? Nope
24. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes, smile
25.Where are you right now? Jia
26. What date and day is it? 6th, Gd Friday
27. Did you go anywhere today? where? Sixth ave
28. What did you do there? Tuition, earning moolahsss
29. How old are you? 19 by 22aug
30. Are you mature or immature? I'm fcuked
31. Do you call your parents by their first name? etc, Mrs Koh? Yeah
32. Are you an only child? KimberleyKoh is picked up by the garbage
33. Where do you go shopping? Mustafa
34. Do you like books? (: (:
35. Do you want to get married? (: (:
36. To whom? Any of my FHMs
37. Current crush? TanXingHua aka Tanhuihui
38. What's your favorite color? White
39. Most hated food(s)? Durian, tomyam, spags
40. Do you miss someone? (: (:
41. City, beach, country? City
42. What is your favorite month(s) of the year? March, aug, sept, december
43. What was the best thing that happened to you this week? I earned.
44. Who is the one you're thinking of right now? Tanxinghua.......
45. Who do you run to when you're down? Lao Wu
46. Who do you love most in the world? Myself, my friends, myfamily and FHMs
47. Are u in love? Yes, in my FHMs
48. What makes a gd gf/bf? Sincerity
49. Ambition? Nurse. ahahhaha. on bed!! ahahaha!
50. Quotes? Believe in karmas

A TRIBUTE TO ALL READERS who misses me

2007-04-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline's sick.
I'm 90% girly. eeeekks.

[x] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop all the time.
[x] You wear eyeliner sometimes.
[x] You buy different colored shirts.
[x] You have many of the same shirts
in different colors
[x] You don't like shopping at Hot
Topic
[ ] Wear the color pink
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[x] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or
pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[x] Skirts are a part of your wardrobe.
[ ] You take a long time doing your
hair.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite
hobbies.
[x] You hate the movie
Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading,
gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 30 minutes to
get dressed and put on make-up and
accesories
[x]have more then 10 pairs of shoes
[x]you usually cried for sad romantic
movie
Add them up and multiply by 5.
Post as "I'm % girly"

2007-04-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

this blog is like abit dead uh.. no one updates anymore. ):

just met jacq for supper after work, fun. =D she was saying it's funny to read all the random entries we wrote last time. YES i so agree. hahaha it's hilarious and so random that even i ask myself what was i thinking when i wrote that particular entry eh.

haha.. right. heng! how have yu been? i haven't heard or seen yu for 900 years already and i so so miss yu! aye yu also can initiate to ask me out yu know... the past few attempts i asked all fail cuz yu weren't free. hmpf.

anyhow, i've been really busy working.. like 10 hours daily kinda thing. my boss is a slavedriver. hahaha.. aye aye aye we must meet before my school starts ok! (:

oh yes, i feel depressed wearing black to work every day.

2007-03-21T07:17:00.000+08:00

Well, I TAKE BACK MY WORDS.

"The makeover" is quite a nice show after all.
Educational for teenagers. Uhmm. A lot to recall and to think over abt.
(Must pay the overdue moolah for renting vcds ><")

Goodnight. Ja-neh.

JacquelineLOVES<3 hanayoridango2 many,many!! First ep already moved me to tears. Why is Tsukasa so harsh on Makino-san? Will Hanazawa Rui be with Makino? Onee-chan is SHO pretty. But Domouyji's wife is very kawaii! What will happened to my Makino?
(:(:

2007-03-21T02:37:00.000+08:00

YO! YO! Check it out!
許惠貞 in the house!

(>.=")

Munch munch munch. munching my cereals away.

I just changed my pad after two hundred and fifty years.
NO! Do not say that i'm disgusting.
I simply forgot about it. Why?
(1) I was too engrossed about the amazement of Internet.
(2) I was filling too much online job application forms, that i did not pee nor rmb abt my mensus.

Sheesh.
BFFs do not laugh at each other. Heng, Felicia despise my appearance in the public. She say it's tah-glam. WHINE WHINE WHINE. haha. i don't care. it's nice anyway!
Baggy tees and shorts.
I neither earns a pair of long legs, big boobs or cutie butt.
Hees.
I'M FUGLY.

I got a tuition job. I'm happy.
I'm no longer that useless.
Munching my cereals away. munch munch munch.

Heng, honestly, i agreed with yr mom about yr idol (2nd pic). That kenashi guy in "The makeover". Really look like "T............" cause he too thin la/cheekbone too high/chin too sharp/eyebrows is eeeerr.... Fatter will be better looking. still GD TASTE *nt bad looking*. and like you said prevs, i really end up liking the idiot friend of his. He's cute and look like Wuzun (= (= *many smileys*
But hor, "The makeover" not nice leh. One week already and i still have not finished that KNN show. Very boring leh. Never gimme enough motivation to contiune. I'm stuck at disc 6. Uhmm. Sian. Overdue 3 days liao leh. Extra moolah. Double sian-ness. Uhmm.

BUT WHO IS THE 1ST & 3RD GUY? *kawaii neh* i wanna know them .... <33hearts

2007-03-19T11:02:00.000+08:00

heng says: choose one!

2007-03-12T14:12:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

yay! i've finally found a job! =D

i'm working as a waitress/bartender at this restaurant+bar located at red dot traffic building, tanjong pagar. pretty place with nice people. well, not that i know if they're genuinely nice but at least i didn't start my first day hating the place. haha..

i'm happy enough to have a job lah and even happier that they wanna train me to be a bartender cuz i'll have lots more stuff to learn as compared to being a waitress. hmmm.

before school term ended, i was whining that i had no time to read my books or watch the movies; but now i'm refusing to read the books or watch the movies cuz i'm so satisfied being a bum. haha..

anyhow, being employed now also means that i have to.... cut down on my ladies' nights, quit constantly hanging out with friends and the worst part, take off-days for occasions. it's especially annoying when i have to take several off-days in a row cuz bosses usually don't like it and worst still, i'm a new staff. ):

bummer.

on to something else, i think anything black makes a good investment. for example, black heels - they're especially important because they miraculously work for all kinds of occasions, from work to play. this job requires me to wear black heels, preferably covered toes. gahh, the only pair i have is this pair of stilettos that's merely 2 1/2 inches but hurts like hell after 2 hours. )':

so, i found myself a perfect excuse to shop for heels. hahaha.. but it wasn't really that fun cuz there were so many limitations, budget constraint and i only had 4 hours to find that perfect pair.

after much consideration, i ended up spending $49.90 on something from U.R.S.. take it as investment lah. sighs. had to buy another 2 black spag tops for work too. that's nearly a good $70 before my first paycheck. YIKES.

ah well, think INVESTMENT.

2007-03-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

I guessed I'm just too ashamed to face the world. I do not know what I can do but, avoid the world. How long can I do that? Suddenly I wanna get employed because, I can lie to myself again in a new environment. & I hate waking up at 9PM. Ohmyfcukingholymama!

Jacq =(

2007-03-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

JACQ IS BORRRRRRRRED.

1) What is your phone brand?
Muthu Sammy

2) What are the last 4 digits of your mobile number?
9351

3) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
Yihui (Ntss) Hmm? Ah talking abt my blog damn long nv update le cos sth went wrong when i tried to fddle with it. & dunno how to fix the mess haha... dunno leh just feel super nervouse this time duno why.. :-S hmm anyway cya tmr lor, i wanna da chi!

4) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
Marina (Brps)

5) Who's the last person you rang?
Felicia

6) Who was your last missed call from?
Shaoqi (05a06)

7) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
Dalini (Pjc)

) What does the last message in your inbox say?
Mr Chia "goody lucky" msg

9) Who comes up under J?
Jssssssss..............................jane janiceplua janicetay janicepjc jasmineng1 jasmineng2 jasminegoh jason jeanie jeremiah jerlyn jerold jeroldhm jerry jessica jingxiang jiaxi jieshi jiemin jieyinghm jieying jimmydad jimmyhm jinger jing joanne1 joanne2 joewei joey jolenn jocelyn juinyeow juliehm julie junda junxiang jxhm

10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 10th message say?
Hey peeps,sending my beloved wishes across singapore.. i wish u luck tmr yea? 230pm, God bless <33 jacq

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?
Serene

12) What's your network provider?
Starhub

13) How many messages are currently in your inbox?
Faulty-nine

14) What do you have as your screensaver?
My lappy dont even have one.

15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up in r?
Randy (Balcony)

16) Who do you have on speed dial 3?
No one

17) Who is the last person under P?
Priscialla (Pjc)

18) Who's the first person who comes up under C?
C4d, Seow san

19) How many bars of signal do you currently have?
3 outta 3

20) What do you have as your main ringtone?
NewFoundGlory- Everything u do

-----

1.Name someone who made you smile today.
Mr Chia "gdluck" msg... was the first msg i saw

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Blogging

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Teeweeee

4. What is something that happened to you in 1992?
I was living with Granny <33 I miss her!

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
Siao ah! Go sleep lah-- to my sis

6. How many different drinks did you drink today?
Ice mik tea, plain water and .....

7. What color is your hairbrush?
I dont use an exact one ... i pick from the colours

8. What was the last thing you bought?
Milk tea, prawnnies from MOS burger

9. Who was the last person you kissed?
I cant remember... was it in january? Uhmm. Dunno.

10. What color is your front door?
Red n offwhite

11. Where do you keep your change?
Pocky

12. What is the weather like today?
RAINNY badly

13. What is the best ice cream flavor?
I dun like icecream wor, raspberry? or the cheap orange ice with vanilla cream inside?

14. What is something you are excited about?
Yanyalun

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
Gosh.

16. What size shoe do you wear?
6

18. Are you very random?
Very

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
Yeah, botak....

20. Are you over the age of 25?
=) no!

21. Do you talk a lot?
I thought i was quiet but my frens shake their heads

22. Do you watch The O.C?
no

23. Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
no

24. Do you know anyone named Steven?
errr... think so

25. Do you make up your own words?
Yeshhy

26. Are you ticklish?
No

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
YEA

28. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R":
Rachel

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "N":
Nicholas

30. Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
Cleopatra's salesgirl

31. What did the last text message you received say?
Chisiang- Lol u 2? Cya soon.

2007-03-01T07:45:00.000+08:00

Jacq says she love the new skin.
Haha!
Sorry for all the lame-ness.
I just wanna "BEAUTIFY" the blog at 7am.

To heng: You can send me yr japanesehubby pics! Grins!

2007-03-01T07:02:00.000+08:00

JacquelineKohHuiCheng reporting from her bedroom; [LIVE telecast]
Stinking!
Me!

I REALISED SOMETHING.
Something i was still tearing about, few days, few months or years back.
Remember the damn guy i was still dreaming of, after two hunred and millions years?

A good boyfriend then, is a good boyfriend then.

NOW, nothing is the same.
Changed, so i should not regret nor envy anyone.
I should contiune living non-existing TAITAI life of mine.

A good boyfriend is one who loves and guide.
Acting on behalf of God, to let u taste what's being blissful.

Uhmm. Not really interested in a rich one, but a smart one? (:

A potential racist said: What's with this pheonmenon about malay and chings girls? Or even Indians and ching girls? How cool can ching-dians get? Holy cow.

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2007-02-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

once again, no one updates. anyhow.. life is boring. i'm even sick of whining about life.

all the best for your results this friday! i'm sure yu guys will pass with flying colours! (:

2007-02-10T10:56:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

haha who did that to your precious little baby? i grant yu permission to slap the person upside down. (:

anyhow, i did something really stupid the other day. (what's new?)

i created a new user account in my computer and because of the new account, my Administrator account (the one i always use) got deleted. so now all my programs are like brand new and i've lost so much so much information.

thankfully none of my documents were gone. but hell, my MSN emoticons, old display pics, samsung pc studio's sms-es + contacts, torrent seeds and rainlendar information are ALL GONE.

sighs.

at least one lesson learnt - always back up, don't rely on computer softwares too much. backing up the good ol' documents is always the best.

2007-02-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

heng says:

I solemly swear that I will never ever let anyone touch my mp3 player again, NEVER. It is now full of scratches and color discolorations.

Blossom buddies

2007-02-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

Heng says:

hey fer, don't get so upset k! here's something to cheer you up, I couldnt' stop laughing when i saw the picture and it looks oddly familiar..

2007-02-05T02:59:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

it is SUPER frustrating to have to do work last minute and stay up the entire night.

i bloody need sleep.

why cant we just do it in the afternoon?!...... DAMN.

ah bungs, be thankful yu guys study solo in JC and universities don't require yu to do much group work. much as it's fun and challenging, yu don't wanna end up with teammates from hell. SIGHS.

anyway, heng ah. yu got receive anything from me not huh? no response from yu eh..

2007-01-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

i am stressed.

UGGHS.

2007-01-30T05:07:00.000+08:00

Jacq

if there's anything, call me up.
Now, i just wanna cherish more time with family and friends, if they care about me + my feelings in the first place.

Going out with my mummy tmr, i'm not a fortunate kid who hv mummy by my side all the long. we hardly exchange a proper conversation. i heaven ate her dishes for ages...... who was beside me when i was ill.
The same things go to my lil sister, i just thought humans shld learn to cherish.
I dunno wass wrong with my sister towards me these days. Did i do smth wrong?

If we're friends, we shld nt be worried abt causing trouble to pple.
Even thought i'm very paiseh to call both of u up all the time when i'm bored, i think maybe i shld stop and learn interdependence. Cause, i guessed i'm troubling people.

Everyone has life but me, as i always mention: i won't pangseh nor ignore any friend even if i'm busy. I really love to cherish every serious relationship with anyone. so, fer, heng, anything call me up.

My life is ain't that smooth-sailing anyway.
11 feb, off i go from warehouse. life's becoming better there but i'm still leaving.

2007-01-29T14:31:00.000+08:00

heng:

hahaha.. yes, i think our account's gonna be expired or something. Hopefully we can meet up soon =) but i think u're gonna be busy with ur upcoming exams right? Anyway, must study hard k! don't end up like me, because I wished i had studied harder for my A levels. Here's a meaningful phrase for you to muse over:

" Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did so. So sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

Mark Twain

2007-01-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

no one's updating and our account is probably dying soon lah.

just logged in and upgraded it to the new version..
so now, our new log-in name is reiko1230@hotmail.com , which is my email la. password remains the same. =D

anyhow, life seems to be getting suckier and bleaker as time passes.
today seemed like an exceptionally poor day for me.

not that anything horrible happened to me.. just wasn't such a good day.

i cant wait for my holidays to come.. i need a break from school and the deadline rush..
as well as the people i suppose.

we need to meet up again soon la.
life's so much better with yu guys.
that's when life is carefree and i dont have to be on my guard.

not that im saying that im always on my guard in school lah.. just that, im not enjoying this period of the semester. im sharing a love-hate relationship with so many things, people and myself.

i do wonder if it's gonna remain like this for the rest of my life.
):

what sad life.

i miss yu guys.
i miss life.

2007-01-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

aye we must meet up soon okay!

it's been sooooo long since we met up. hmpf.

2006-12-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

http://alabe.com/freechart/

Name: Koh Hui Cheng Jacqueline
August 22 1988
4:26 AM Time Zone is AWST
Singapore, SING

Bold is what i personally agreed on.

Rising Sign is in 19 Degrees Cancer
Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however -- once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security -- in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected.

Sun is in 28 Degrees Leo.
More than a bit of a showoff, you love to be the center of attention! But others do not usually mind because they tend to enjoy your genuine warmth and affection. Very spirited and willful, proud and self-important at times, you demand your own way. You are quite honest, however, and the respect of others is very important to you. You never compromise yourself and you pursue your goals with persistence and dedication. Your regal presence and demeanor draws you to positions of leadership and authority. But beware of being overly hardheaded, domineering, ostentatious or patronizing or you will lose the goodwill and admiration that you enjoy. Very theatrical, you live life on a grand scale wherever and whenever possible. Your strength and energy vitalizes those who come in contact with you.

Moon is in 13 Degrees Sagittarius.
An idealist, you prefer the grand, the beautiful, the good and the noble. You get very disappointed when your high expectations in life are not met. Very curious by nature, you enjoy traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. Try to avoid your tendency to ignore the small but important details of living. You are independent and free, and you want others to be that way, too. Optimistic, buoyant and cheerful, others like to have you around. You have an incessant desire to learn as much as possible about metaphysics, religion, philosophy and any other broad, deep subject. Your life tends to be punctuated by bursts of energy and frenetic activity.

Mercury is in 16 Degrees Virgo.
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, and you get the reputation of being a nag or of being nit-picky. Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!

Venus is in 13 Degrees Cancer.
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.

Mars is in 11 Degrees Aries.
You are very independent and self-assertive, and you have lots of physical energy. You are not satisfied unless you can be the first to do something. As such, you are more comfortable in leadership positions than you are as an underling. When you are challenged by anyone for anything, you delight in the competitive process and will fight long and hard for your beliefs. You are bold and courageous and often act without thinking. At times, in your zeal to get ahead, you are tactless and offensive -- learn that cooperation with others can often bring you nearer to your goals quicker because of the support you will get.

Jupiter is in 04 Degrees Gemini.
You have a logical, detached, objective view of most things. Your interests are wide-ranging and you are an avid student, with expertise in many different areas. You love to work things out in your mind -- everything you do is reduced to an exercise in logic and reason. You have the ability to grasp abstractions and to deal successfully with the larger issues of life. Your overemphasis on developing your powerful intellect can cause your emotional and intuitive abilities to atrophy unless you consciously choose to exercise them.

Saturn is in 25 Degrees Sagittarius.
Basically quite conservative, you respect traditional authority figures and are very thankful and supportive of the laws and institutions which govern your life. You learn and accept new ideas only after having very thoroughly examined them. Ideals and abstract concepts are important to you only if they can be used in some practical fashion. You are so practical and so orderly that you have natural skills in planning, administrating and organizing.

Uranus is in 27 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 07 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 10 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 14 Degrees Pisces.
You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!

2006-12-26T19:46:00.000+08:00

Jacq (finally!)

like an old saying says, absence makes a heart grow fonder.
that's for the three of us, isn't it? LOL
I MISS U ALL.

PEOPLE, DO DROP ME AN SMS/ CALL (occasionally before i get M-I-A).

I need to apologise sincerely because i really cannot draw out any free time for the two of you, ever since i started working.
Odd-working hours, but i love the pay and the company i'm hanging around with.

No scolding, just genuine advice for heng, i don't really know yr character towards strangers because i never felt coldness coming from you. Since young, you have been someone with a big warm tinky winky's heart. Sounds cheesy? Do change yourself for good. U know what i mean, i'm worried for yr coming university days. So am i for myself. U like sports and so much more, but there's so much that you're not doing because of the lack of cash. So do something for passion! U dun wan to work in so many fields, u wanna be isolated? uhmm, why carry such a heavy mask on yrself? I dunno what u're facing at work, i hv no right to comment. BUT AS LONG AS U'RE HAPPY, i'll support.
just wanna let u know, if u want to join whatever sports, get whatever cds, buy whatever sportwear ... u need cash. A hard decision.
don't be a mummy's girl and wait for her cash to drop on yr hands. Yr mummy has been working very hard. Do try for a better job, darling. mabbe u'll find a good guy outside. Gd luck.

As for felicia, i know u're back into enjoying the good old days with yr secondary frens. as long as u're happy (= we'll definitely meet up soon!!!!!

As for myself, i almost wanted to give up pork for my hottie malay bartender.
So hot! except for his familiar name.
His flaring skills behind the bar is the best, i almost fall for that.
But come to the end, it wun work out. so i ended my fantasy silently, before i suffer in future.

Just concentrating in making money, for my holiday trips
be it alone or with friends. LOL
like i always wanted after A levels, a break overseas, learning new cultures, get to know more of the outside world. It's too compressed in a country with naive pple like Singapore.

Read my 2007 resolutions in my blog & dun be surprised. Grins. HAPPY HOLIDAYS BABIES!

MERRY CHRISTMAS (ED)! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2006-12-26T09:30:00.000+08:00

heng says:

woohoo! I quit my job already! Yes! aircon makes me sick and no more listening to the bimbo, the bitch and the lone smarty pants! This bitch, she said if her child is ugly looking, she'll end up abusing her child and ask the child to go away. Remember the magic word " karma" ,my dear colleague. Don't say things too soon..

Anyways, what's over is over, I'm just really happy to be at home. The last one week, was horrible.. when you're working an office job, you're kinda like cut off from the entire world. I mean for me la.. I lose contact with all my friends, i hardly see my mom n bro.. and you're stuck with people whom you dislike. Welcome to the working world man.. Hopefully for my next job, I would be the only newbie and there are no others. Then, i can eat lunch alone and quit having to talk to people. For now, I don't want to work yet. Maybe I'm insolent, but who cares?

oh right, that one week made me realise how much I miss my friends n mom n bro, cheesy but true. Close friends always give you that kinda feeling that cannot be replaced by anyone. That makes me start to wonder, am i still gonna be that fucked up when i enter university? am i gonna sit aside and sulk just because someone i don't like is there? am i gonna be snobbish? am i gonna be enthu and not dead like how i always am? am i gonna move out of my comfort zone and make new friends? I would very much love to keep my old friends, but they'll always move on, wouldn't they?

Enough of the sad stuff, this is the time to make new year resolutions again! I wish for both fer and kopi in 2007 that... you two

1: get lucky in whatever you do and want
2: meet good and caring people in your future jobs
3: meet your Prince charming ( doesn't matter if he's not as handsome as Wentworth Miller, hahahaha)
4: get excellent results in your studies, for fer that'll be ur final year, jac ur A levels
5: that 2007 will be a smoothsailing and exciting and rich $$$$$ year =)

For bro :

1: ur album will hit platinum $$$$
2: meet loads of good, real people in the industry
3: ur relationship will be smoothsailing n fulfilling
4: excellent A level results
5: NS will not be so harsh on you, n u'll meet loads of real, excellent friends ( unlike S23 guys)

For huiiihuiii:

1: excellent A level results
2: that old monster from accounts will be taught an unforgettable lesson
3: more $$$$ for you
4: be less clumsy

last but not least, regardless of whether you hate me or not, I still want you all to have a great 2007, all the best in your future endeavors, cheers =) and remember to tell your loved ones how much you appreciate them to be in your life.

2006-12-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

MERRY CHRISTMAS DEARS!
have a wonderful 2007 ahead! it's gonna be whole new beginning for all of us and especially both of yu since yu guys are just fresh out of JC. i wish for good results, high pays (with nice managers) and smooth sailing love life for both you darlings! (:

and of course i wished that for myself too, just that it's much longer. hahaha.. okay yu know me.
hur hur hur.

how was christmas for the both of yu?

it's such a pity, i thought i'd get to celebrate christmas this year with yu guys.. after all, it's been so long since the 3 of us met up! in fact, tooooooo long! ):

for me, i spent christmas with my sec sch mates. went to a friend's sister's party.. free food and beer. quite a nice start.. but it ended with ultimate gore shows like Saw and See No Evil at a friend's place. what a nice way to end christmas celebration.

anyway, let's meet up soon okay! i really miss yu guys!

2006-12-22T15:08:00.000+08:00

fer askes ..

ARE WE GONNA CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS 2006 TOGETHER!?

2006-12-19T04:45:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to say to heng.
just rest since if u dun like going to work..... tv's good (100% supporter)
if making conservations can save some of yr work load. ..... as u wish

cos miscommunication SUCKS at my job.
cos i always kena fcuked due to [[act-smart + lazy + slacker]] colleagues

2006-12-15T08:11:00.000+08:00

heng:

well, I deleted the previous entry. That person reads this blog, I don't want her to come screaming at me after she realizes its her. I hate confrontations, its not that I'm a coward, I mean, well, ok maybe I am. Because I wouldn't know what to do and say to her, it'll probably hurt her and me too. Worse, she won't accept it. She'll turn the tables on me. Stupid, really. I'd rather suffer and complain just to avoid being confronted by her. Thanks anyway jac, my problems are endless.. I'll be fine after complaining.

Shit man, time fries. Next Monday I'll be starting training at Citibank, in some ulu place. Now, I regret accepting the job. The money is tempting but I just want to slack and watch tv at home, you have no idea how nice the afternoon tv shows are, especially The Ellen Degeneres Show. Just in case you dunno who she is, she's the one who voiced over "Dory" in Finding Nemo. I think her audience are a damn lucky bunch! By going to her show, apart from being entertained by her humor, you get free gifts like a Nikon digital camera, a Dixie Chicks CD, and a Zune mp3 player that isn't even released in the market yet, how good is that?

Right, so if I fail the training, I'll just get 4 days of pay, I mean if there is even any pay to be given at all. Its good to be sacked, but on the contrary, I'll kaobei why I should be the one to get laid off. Sigh... being a student forever is the best, honest. I don't know anybody there, and I really hate making new friends, if unnecessary.. and i suck at that too.

But then again, some people want to work but they are not allowed to do so. Because they're either physically or mentally disabled, or they suffer from some illness. I watched "against all odds" yesterday, its about this guy called Jeremy Goh, he suffers from tourette's syndrome. Just in case you didn;t catch it, here's a summary: Its a neurological condition, whereby he jerks his limbs , shouts, blinks his eyes, jerk his neck and shrug his shoulders involuntarily. He has this problem of hitting his chin with his knuckles, as a result his knuckles developed another layer of skin, I think it must have hurt alot. He has to tape his keyboard so that he doesn't hit his keyboard away, sew up his pockets to refrain from tearing it, wear jersey material clothing so that he doesn't tear it as well.

They were filming him sitting on a bench in front of orchard MRT station, and he suddenly twitches his leg and shouts, this stupid indian woman who walked past just shot him a filthy disgusted look. Eh woman, be thankful people don't do that to you. Anyway, Jeremy's bosses laid him off because of this condition, his girlfriend's parents objected to their relationship because of it as well. But fortunately, he gets to work for the church by being a mentor to mentally disabled adults, because his boss treats him as someone special and not a freak, unlike his previous boss. Despite his condition, he gets to make a difference to people, and he's grateful for that.

Jeremy gets taunted and bullied by his classmates when he was in secondary school, even his teachers doesn't understand his condition, they put him outside of class. Classmates say mean things to him like how his parents did bad things, that's why he was borned. Now you know why some people kill themselves because of such bullies. About 1 in a 100 are borned with Tourette's syndrome. The point of him agreeing to do the documentary is to create awareness among Singaporeans, because apparently they don;t understand tourette's syndrome. Its alright to laugh at people who's fat, or ugly or whatsoever. But the worse thing you can do is to laugh at those with disabilities. You don't understand the condition, you don't suffer from it, so you have no rights to laugh at them.

So the next time if you ever see Jeremy, smile to him or maybe ask how his day went. I wouldn't do it because I suck at making conversations and smiling, I might just spoil his day for him. Everybody wants to make a difference in this world, doesn't it? He wants to. And so do I. I'm 18 and there's alot of things I want to accomplish in this life. Well, if i ever have a bright future and i end up making big bucks, I'd really like to start something up for tourette's sufferers so they wouldn't have to face rejections from employers. Maybe after watching a few other episodes of the documentary, I'd want to start something up for people suffering from other conditions as well. Up till now,I'm still unsure of what I want to do, I just dunno. Hahaha.. I tried voluntary work, I screwed up, so its best I just provide the funds and let other more capable people do the work.

But if i end up making no bucks at all, then, well.. let's get to that later.

2006-12-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

Jacq:

Heng well darling, i kinda read yr previous entry and was totally puzzled over what u're talking. Is there anything that i can help you with? I mean, we're friends, i'm not exactly that busy like u think. If you still count me as a buddy, so message me your prob.
Felicia yup, your awaiting holiday is finally here. we are gonna meet up soon right?

To the both of you Jacq is doing perfectly well, yea, i know i sounded like i'm down with unhappiness in my own blog but those are small little upset coming across my life. I'm not bothered. Currently, i'm coping well at job, learning from the bottom, experiencing teamwork which i have lost 2 years back. In PJC, there's hardly any form of teamwork which i always appreciate. I realise i love complaining a lot for the past 2 years but it's always due to all sorts of circumstances that make me realise more to life (= This job in barfly opens me to more understanding towards life. There's no such thing like "bad life", it's all abt how u handle with it.
Down with flu -boo-
I don't know if i can spend this xmas, cause to me, any form of gathering on any day is more to ask for, than during those BIG occasions. Living a life till eighteen, i wanna see more, experience more.
Love is no longer my priority cause there's no need to. I should just grab the chance to go and enjoy life.

Got a sudden urge to travel, i wondered what inspires me. Maybe is due to this adventurous heart to seek for fun and amazement. Do i sound like i'm dying? I just want to make full use of my holiday. I hope i can earn enough money to go new zealand or uk, enjoy some laid-back lifestyle. haha! i really got lobang to enjoy free lodging there, let's hope that my A level will be desirable so i won't have to mourn over it. I want to travel badly!!

Small people come by and make my life a little difficult (not in terms of work),
people give me different stares upon what i do.
But i'm happy, comfortable and contented.
Even if u think that i'm a slut ... i'm jacqueline. you cannot find another similar girl elsewhere.
I will only change myself for my own sake. Be yourself <33 i want to see you two soooooooooon!!!

i owe ......... (i'm gonna stop playing for the time being)
felicia - 95$ (art materials, medicine)
jieying - 50$ (ktv and clubbing)
annabel - 30$ (bag)
jessica - 30$ (goong's pictorial bk + weiling present)
manager - 40$ (ktv plus drinks)

i need my pay soon. LOL!

2006-12-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

usually im the one complaining that no one updates and stuff.. now it's the other way round.

life's soo busy for me but it's sort of satisfying in a way. i feel kinda weird when there're no pressing deadlines.

damn, am i going insane?

hahaha right. maybe i am, but well.. life goes on.

i spent the entire of my previous weekend at my friend's place chionging work.. it was like 4D3N boot camp. hahaha.. it's fun actually.. with all the company, late night maggi goreng, teh beng and endless crap.

one day we should have a stayover too! it's gonna be so much fun. (: i love stayovers.

ahh well, let's meet up real soon. i mean, 3 of us.. okay?

for now, good night darlings.

2006-12-04T10:09:00.000+08:00

Heng:

Weird, The Air Force sent me a letter inviting me to join their seminar on 9th december, the point of the seminar is to convince me to start a career at the RSAF and be a officer, and also to take up a scholarship. They sent me yet another letter to my mom on friday asking her to persuade me to attend the seminar. So then, i agreed, I just had someone from the Air Force called me, telling me I've got a seat for me and mom reserved.

Well, I'm flattered, but then again, I think they send it out to each and every A level candidate, so.. hahaha..
But I reckon they should check the person's results before sending them the invitation. I would really love to join the Air Force, take up a scholarship so my mom don't have to pay, but.. my results are horrifying and i don't have any good CCA records, nor am I a captain of some CCA. Sigh.. I'm sorry Air Force, you've just wasted 2 letters on me.

My smart brother says even if they accept me, they have to build a special plane made of heavy duty metal to hold my weight. Thanks ah thanks ah. My plane would be the first one to crash if we were to be engaged in war, i doubt a heavy duty plane with missiles can fly high. Sigh, forsake your chestnut stuffed turkey and christmas caroling Cambridge! Mark faster so I can know my future!

2006-12-03T04:29:00.000+08:00

Jobless jacqueline:

It's okay (:
People talk because people bother to. We are their subject on their tables all day long.
I hope my scary face appears in their nightmares too. I'm the guardian of their thoughts. Hehe.

Watched a boring yet deep-meaning show.
It's always a little cruel when the entire truth is flipped unto another side when u're kept in the dark. Well, we'll grow up and realise more harmful things. Yeah, it's hard learning to look from different perspectives, hard to capture another's mind. Pretty interesting!
Human. Heart, the most challenging battle floor.
I hope to capture every single moment of my life. Right now. In my heart.
My happiness, my sadness.
If the memory spaces in my brain cells allow (:
- - - Taking a gentle stroll back to my past; revolving round my unknown future.

Someone says all i need is a boyfriend to divert my concentration, NO! i say it's a holiday.
I wanna fly.
I yelled at my mum for nagging at the jobless me. I just took a break from A level and there, she's uttering so much nonsense. I thought of running away from home. But nothing bets kinship cause yr family will nv despise you.

Let's see, it's possible for me to a hotel manager? freelance photographer? a designer? a dancer? an artist? a taitai?
Should i say i hv too much talents, or too much interests
or i'm capable of eveything or best at nothing?
I need a route directed from God. =D

JC life officially ended.

2006-12-01T16:24:00.000+08:00

heng:

prom's over and done with. Congrats to the newly crowned prom king and queen! I thought lynette should've been crowned prom queen, but prom king, he won hands down. I thought he really deserved the title. Anyways, someone told me that rumors has is that Jac and I have been flaming the new prom king on our blog, or I dunno, mentioning him or something, its nothing good. I'm not sure, because I haven't done such a thing, and i doubt jac has. If you're talking about me mentioning that he's prom king, I see nothing wrong with it. But if its other stuffs, then, I think people out there who started the rumors should get your facts right. Its bloody boring you know anot, even on Grad Night, i get bogged down by this kinda issue. Jacqueline is jacqueline, Hwee Heng is Hwee Heng. We're 2 different persons. Just because we share a blog, it doesn't mean our actions are linked together. Whatever one might do or say, it is solely that person's responsibility. So please do not pinpoint or group people together. Its just like, whatever I'm saying now, its my responsibility to shoulder it should any consequence pop up again. Get it? I don't wish to hear anymore nonsensical rumors. People grow up, right now, I'm living the life of an adult, working and earning money. Where do I get the time to mention him, much less to flame him? He play no part in my life. sigh.. dunno what to say.

2006-11-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

CONGRATS ON YOUR OFFICIAL COMPLETION OF A LEVELS!

we'll go party ... soon!

(:

2006-11-26T03:09:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

heng, dont be bothered about those trashy air heads.

talking with helium in my lungs is way cooler than being associated with them.

wow jacq, your entries are getting more and more enigmatic.

it's about time we meet up and uncover the mystery.

yes, after this week aights.

(:

2006-11-25T14:55:00.000+08:00

Jacq. (yea! i'm free to blog too.)
Some smart die-hard-blog-fans are putting some smart tags on my tagboard. How do we describe them: SMART.

Reply them in entries. They only know how to use other people's names. So smart. smart. smart. No one ever praise u in that way? I hit the jackpot again.
Cut it off.

- - - - - -

Apart from that,
strange people tries to keep u in place with regular stuff, to make sure that yr decision made will never be altered. That u stand firm with all yr past thoughts. But they did not realise that human minds are ever-changing. They think they hold the key into yr soul. They think they will benefit from you once again. I will not fall into their trap again. They never received knowlegde after mistakes .. all they know is self-advantage. Uhmm.

2006-11-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

Jacq:
Should i stay or should i go?

It' really tiring to think about the future without playing any single role. I hold no control in my coming days. Sucks. I'm so tired to comment. Phones are the worst creations cause no one will answers yr damn calls. LOL It' best leaving what was in the mess and move on with all that u have, or i'll be stuck with depression? Too much sappy love songs. eeks.
Humans change a lot. or isn't my opinion towards them?

It's a beautiful life! It's beautiful life!
Can i put a nice song on the blog ?? Pls?
-Sui yue ru ge- by Eason Chen, theme song of "Triumph to the skies"

2006-11-23T09:32:00.000+08:00

heng:

I don't care about consequences anymore, this is a free society, i have my freedom of speech. If you're reading, all the better. But if you're not, its fine, i have already vented ALL my anger.I just found what i've wanted, a moment of kay-po-ness is what made me began the search. Its bloody exciting and disappointing at the same time to find what you've really desired, i found it and i read it. And now, my mind's totally blank. Sooner or later, people are gonna know what i'm talking about, freak you.. i don't care

That person wrote that its only a kind of responsibility to reply those who've "messaged" you, its a responsibility because you don't know that person, and you have absolutely no interest in knowing that person. But at the same time, you feel that you have to reply and give some attention because after all, you're being responsible. Right, what a fucking responsible person you are, "friend", aww.. what to say, i appreciate you being such a responsible person. That person went on to elaborate about how sad it is that you can't wholly write all your thoughts on your blog because unwanted people are reading, you never know, its like infringing on that person's territory.

"friend", since you're soulmates with that person, why can't you bloody hell learn something from that person and understand that you ARE the unwanted person and you once invaded my privacy? I know your brain's severely fermented but at least, try? I seriously don't think that you're sorry for everything, a word of "sorry" from you is worthless, it means nothing, that word from you is just like dirt on my shoes, its so fucking foul. I don't want it, and i don't think you fucking mean it. And, i'm not sorry either, i have said so much sorries that it mean nothing, if you're gonna think that " oh she's so drama, she said sorry to me so many times now she's schizo" , i was just trying to get back into your good books, that, i admit was my main intention. I thought maybe sorry could savage something, change some things but I never was once sorry for what i flamed you, i mean what i've said about you but not your friends, they're innocent. I'd better say it first before your friend start flaming me calling me rotten again because he got dragged in. Its just plain old you that i'm unhappy about. Those sappy sad sorries i've said to you, yeah it sure is sad but it meant nothing, i'm not bloody sorry at all.

I'm a petty fat arse, i don't forget nor do i forgive, that's what i am, i'm a rotten petty person. A leopard never changes its spots, i don't, if i'm petty and horrible then so be it. I don't see a need to change, not unless people like you are completely extinct. Oh.. but i think that's gonna be a fucking long time, ain't it? I think you're really contradicting you know, back then when the tagging was still goin on, you asked me to leave your friends alone and that you're solely responsible. Hell yes, i WOULD hold you, and only you solely responsible for everything. Because of your horrendously big mouth, you go wagging your tail, telling people to come here and read, wag your tail even more because you're happy that everyone's embarrassing me. Don't freaking deny that you didn't laugh about what has happened.

My 2 friends whom i'm sharing the blog with got dragged down, we get plagued with accusations saying we crave for attention because we blog, and you? you started it all because of word from your mouth. By the way, i have a hate site specially set up for me and jac. Do drop by if you're free. Anyways, you merely sat aside and looked over it, you didn't once ask them to stop and i doubt you would want it to stop anyway. These 2 friends have been with me since i was in primary 3, they mean as much to me as that person to you. Would you like me to flood that person's tagboard, and re-enact the whole scene? Wait, before you fucking brainlessly go call up that person to give warning, i'm not childish like you.. That person ain't worth my energy, and i would have been bored to death if i were to read that person's entries again. I don't degrade myself by tagging. Fret not, that person's very very safe, i don't hurt people around you to get to you, that's just wasting my time. But then again, you're probably gonna think that i'm jealous of you? hahaha..try harder to make me feel jealous of you, honestly!

You're probably gonna say i accuse you of everything you haven't done, but does it matter now? no, it doesn't. Like you said, you're solely responsible and i take your word for it. Seriously, you dunno the seriousness of everything. Everything may be over, but i'm still battling with it, battling with myself. No matter how big sized i am, i'm still a girl, no doubt. Sometimes i'm happy, laughing then suddenly reality just hit you in the face and you start to dwell on it over and over again. I desperately want to turn back time, but until the day i fully get over it, i shall learn to live with it. Perhaps when the day comes, i'll be a nicer and better person. But for now, i'm still rotten, vulgar old me, like it or not, its your business.

2006-11-21T09:51:00.000+08:00

heng:

yup jac, you never know right, both of you could be friends again, so don't give up hope. If you want happiness, then fight for it yourself. Erm, though i always don't practice what i preach.

Ho! saw my classguys yesterday, the whole bunch of them. I dunno how to describe the feeling, but it sure feels good seeing them, they never change, one whole bunch of oddballs.. hahaha.. really,very cute, they start to get me all reminiscent about jc life, particularly lesson time.. Sad to say, i really miss them. But those class outings that they organized always turn out unsuccessful, maybe its jinxed or something. 2 years gone in a blink of eye, if i could turn back time, i really would.

As people grow older, they tend to go their separate ways don't they? Those with boyfriends would go with their boyfriends, others move on to higher level of education, everything changes and you bloody hell have to move out of your comfort zone and enter a new and scary one. I don't want to.

2006-11-21T01:39:00.000+08:00

Jacq.
Nobody blogging.
Heng i keep thinking about the possibilities of what we're talking after dai tai feng.

Will the future changes its content according to my will?
Uhmm... I really hope for the best, at least ..
for both of them.
Happiness was chosen elsewhere. Lol.

I wonder why is it still there ... u know, still in that thingy. Will the answer be what i desire?
Will it be like what that significant sentence that was said long ago means?

I'm counting the years ahead. Uhmm... One day we'll be good friends again.

2006-11-18T04:47:00.000+08:00

feel like tearing now.
very exhausted. jacq

after all the hard work, gatherings r welcomed yet
pple KNNB come and spoil them.

sumtimes they pretend so much .........................

whatever that is, is about the nest step in life now.
i forgot abt everything that happened within these 2 years.
nothing memorable. everything was a lie from the beginning.

2006-11-11T16:32:00.000+08:00

jacq
don't bother about them.
A level is enough trouble to deal with
they will never have the taste of it -too bad
as least not for now.
we have 9 months before university to fix them up (=

heng to "heng"

2006-11-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

oei, what's up with you using my name, there's only one Ang Hwee Heng in this world and that is me. Why like using that name so much? i thought you hate me don't you? if you love using my name so much, then i think you like being fat like me la right? Seriously, what is it that you're unhappy with? The same goes to you, don't hide behind a computer and start tagging at other people's blog. Are you suffering from STD? (severe tagging disorder) If you find yourself looking at this now, fuming like hell, blood rushing to your head, searching hard if there is a tag board miraculously appearing here ( no there isn't ), then going over to jac's blog and start tagging again.... then you seriously need help.

2006-11-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

Jacq -DESTROYED-
if God says that's it for me,
if this is the way for me,
if i have no way out,
if there's no more solution offered,
if i don't deserve it,
if someone else should have it,
if this is the way you are going to treat,
if this is the way you think i shld be treated,
if this is the way i shld landed up in .............

i will obey to my destiny
YEAH, I DON'T DESERVE

if my parents care, they wouldn't have give birth to me & make me suffer
if my friends care, they do. Thanks. but i can't expect them to be there 24/7
if you care...

if heartbreaks, separation with love ones like my granny and dad, discrimination from the outside world can't tear me down.
What more can tear me completely?
Even if i fail A level, it won't tear me down either. A level, big deal?
Commit sucide loh, my family will get a lot of charity help.
D I E

FCUK OFF to anyone who tries to destroy me in one way or another.
no way.
try harder.
other than tag my blog, might as well get some bangladesh fcuk me.
might as well steal my IC and make sure loan shark run after my entire family.
might as well stalk me home and burn my house down.
put my handphone number online loh, that what u guys are capable of. Be as ruthless as me.
If i can do it, then be more evil than me.
U won't go hell, you will join me. Wuahaha! Die together!

2006-11-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

what's with yu guys?

take a chill pill and drink some cold beer baby.

and i feel suffocated at home.

2006-11-05T10:22:00.000+08:00

heng: k, as long as you're happy.

2006-11-04T05:07:00.000+08:00

Jacq -

I choose to be set free like a balloon, to fly ..

Once entangled, now free to leave from the piece of mess. For one to love another is more tiring than to be loved. I yearn to be pampered in the hands of mr.right one fine day. I will, cause i choose to fly now.

If i were to use all methods to snatch his heart back, that's not love, but greed.
Love is only tragic when two loved ones cannot be together.
It's only just foolishness to come from one party.
Yea, today i wake up.
it's all me, being a dumb willing party,

cong tou can shi, du shi wo, zi ji xin gan qing yuan de
zui hou, zi ji qui bian cheng le yi ge da sha gua :l

2006-11-04T03:51:00.000+08:00

Jacq -
Heng, it's okay. Let's not brood over the past. It's everything.
The fact is, i was REALLY angry and utterly disappointed at you, for being friends with me for so long. Partly, it's part of my wishing thinking too.
I thought maybe you will not leave me alone.
There's so much to argue, when's the last time you see me? you even had mock maths exam and so much remedial with them & you actually claim that you have not seen them for long.
it's really okay, i cannot be like a childish kid to go around whining that my friend pangseh me. Even though i sms-ed the night before, but do stand in my shoe when i waited nearly an hour for you, pangseh-ing my classmates for you. I could have ate my lunch with them, instead of buying sushi and eat on bus. Thankfully, i met kristian. At least i have someone accompanying the entire afternoon.
Remember, the next time you probably gonna see me, it's prom.
Forget it, i don't want to talk about it anymore.
Let the matter rest, i've finished venting my anger, don't mention it anymore.
At the end of the day, a Leo hate loneliness.
I admit strongly to it. I'm too sensitive. Sorry.

Felicia, i guessed you know what exactly i am talking in my blog, yet is about what i last sms-ed you on that night.

You know, there's a saying that goes, "love cannot be ordered."
Jacq do not want to let the past affect her future anymore. What is left in the past, should remain where it is and maybe a fresh start of a new friendship may blossom this time.
I don't ask for more this time, at least we're on talking terms.
The more i try to fight, the more i feel like a bitch, snatching him back from the other girl.

Now, why not i just follow the wave, follow the flow, whatever that comes, i shall accept it. Obviously i cannot hurt myself in any case, but i should just .. think about myself before anything. There's many other ways to strive for happiness. Now my concentration is A level, then a job, then .. wait for my parents' side to settle? No movement yet but, my mom is just too determined to leave him.

You know, now i feel like i'm HYORIN, too much of princess hours.
like, initially, it was just me and Prince Shin.
then came chaegyung out of the sudden and .. he fell for her, leaving hyorin alone.
Hyorin tried to use ways to fight for her love,
& however, they just ended up as close friends, isn't it?
Just like ... kim sam soon too! I feel like YU XI ZHEN!

YUP, i shall be more receptive to guys out there,
be less demanding,
turn more demour (kristian say i'm too fierce on the outlook *whine*)
or like what kenglam say - "i'll take you if you still don't hv a BF when u're 25 yrs old"
WTF??!!!!!!!! chiong! touchwood!
Isn't kenglam (1st) cute and justin (2nd) pretty ??

I'm a happy girl, people!!!
From the horoscope, it says i'm a IQ 180 killer on the field of love.
it's true .......... WUAH-HA-HA
I heaven reveal my true image yet, i'm not that weak! power!
I'm as determined as YUAN XIANG QING to look for my prince charming
JIANG JIANG JIANG zhi shu <3

[[Some memories ... ]]
You know how crappy this show gets with this family ...

It really started with a kiss ......

WEIRDEST WEDDING EVER .. !!!!

In the end ...... AWW ........

2006-11-03T13:01:00.000+08:00

heng:

its my fault for going with them after i promised to go home with you. I haven't gone out with them for ages, and i really miss talking to the both of them alot. I just didn't have the heart and guts to tell you that, in case you'll blow up or something. You and me, we still can update each other on how we've been through this blog, and i read yours occasionally. But xiaowei and hui hui, they don't have blogs. I do miss you too, but i know how you've been. I swear, the next time i won't promise to go home with you first, in case something like this crops up. Sorry.For your info, they didn't treat me to the free meal, the both of them and i know that its a hoax, its fake one, they 're not that kind with their money.. They never treat me to free meals before. We're all typical singaporeans.

2006-11-02T16:52:00.000+08:00

heng says:

Hey ! i've got a new nickname! I'm known as the Fat One, hui hui's known as the Other Fat One! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. oh my god la, that is really, really creative! Any more nicknames you've cracked your brains to think for me? Its abit wasted my tagboard's gone, or else you can share your creative work with me, well, that's just too bad for both parties.

ANyways, there's no such thing as having no time to blog. Just like there's no such thing as having no time to show off your pretty girlfriend in front of me.

Was eating in ichiban boshi at bpp today, met the whole gang of them, my first reaction was " wa lau eh.." i used to feel indignant but shameful at the same time, but not anymore. Maybe its coincidence, or maybe you did it on purpose,go ahead and say i'm a crazy sensitive bitch, but i have no qualms telling you, you made me that way. i'm not blind ok.. My big eyes are borned for a purpose. You told her something, she backed behind abit, turned around and looked at me.

Yes, i'm yours truly, the thicked skinned idiot who apparently got condemned. Sure, she can sing "kiss me" well, looks pretty and gentle, fair skinned, cute face, nice character, girly, she's everything a guy wants. Good for you that you're with her! I know for sure you'll treat her really realy well. But I hope i don't see you anymore in future, just like you don't ever want to see me in future, because that'll just remind me of how i was deemed stigmatized. And that, i'll keep in mind forever.

2006-11-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

GO WATCH THIS.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmtgnEXjvvI

bloody funny.

MAKE MY BRAIN BIGGER

2006-10-31T11:00:00.000+08:00

Heng:

hi jac, hope you're coping ok, i lasted til 3am yesterday, woke up at 7am to start studying, its a good thing i'm following my time table. FINALLY. Study smart? i dunno eh..when i get my results then i can tell you whether i've studied smart anot.Take care of your health, don't keep eating sleeping pills, its bad. Its normal to suffer from insomnia during major exams. Everyday when i lie on my bed to sleep, i'll automatically start to rewind what i've memorised previously, if i can't remember i'll switch on the lights and check it out then i can go to sleep peacefully.This is a sign of ultimate insanity number 1. No no no, i'm not hardworking my dear, i feel that i'm still too slack, i'm not doing enough to get the grades i want. I want to get good grades but sometimes i'll get very very distracted.

Distracted as in not by stupid matters, but when i start to feel happy that i know how to do the past year examination questions, i'll ask myself "what if others knew too? surely they'll know how to do as well? they're smarter than you! What if they did more than you?" This is ultimate sign of insanity number 2.

Ultimate sign of insanity number 3: when i take a break by eating lunch and watching tv at the same time, i'll feel damn damn guilty, i'll punish myself by sleeping late, that is to say, its either 3am or go past that and wake up at 7am. Even my bro thinks that past 3am is waaay to late, first time ever he has to coax me to sleep.

Ultimate sign of insanity number 4: i don't feel tired anymore. Feels good but its scary, the last thing i want is to fall asleep during afternoon math paper. If so, then, hallejulah to myself.

Ultimate sign of insanity number 5: i keep thinking cambridge is out to kill us by setting difficult questions, that is their way of differentiating the better students. Apparently so.

Ok, times up, back to studying, take care everyone!

2006-10-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline IN DA HOUSE *shagged*

Just studied overnight at Mac.
OMG
Not that i'm slacking, but i suppose my brain capacity is reaching to its MAX.
I can't contain anymore lectures. Doomed.

Seriously i get worried to the extent that i can't get into sleep these days. i don't feel good at all. I ate panadol for my headache, and i cant sleep. It sucks. It really sucks to know that yr body is failing you desipte yr strong determination to work hard for A level. Bullshit!!! Why do everything go against you even though you have 100% will to conquer it.

I know i can complete my revision if i continue to devote my time to all my pile of notes.
But it really sucks that nothing goes in. WHAT IF I GET MENTAL BLOCK AGAIN? i'll cry till i drop myself flat on the ground. My ultimate fearmost paper - phy geog and econs. And they are coming first. I suppose i need to rely on sleeping pills for the next coming three weeks.

Heng, i feel that you are very hardworking and do make sure u study smart k ?
Dun stress.
I know that this is like impossible but ... try our best ba.

And i know i look UN-stress to everyone but .. u cant see my brains, they are working at a faster rate than my actions are. I'm turning insane. I cant stop thinking, AND i cant rest well, cant sleep well ... not like i can eat well. Everything sucks when stress enters me. It sucks even more when nightmares attack me.

all i ask is, sufficient deep sleep.

I hope when i collect my Goong pictorial book ltr, it may DESTRESS me. pls.

Today is the 105th day that i have not seen jimmy. Not that i'm thinking about him, i just feel empty alone. I don't feel good. I'm basically DISTURBED. Maybe i just want a boyfriend. Keng lam is cute! KL's boy is HOT. SRJC basketball hunk is my ultimate eyecandy. YJC soccer no.24 is cute too, but got gf. sheesh~ HAHA

2006-10-27T12:32:00.000+08:00

heng says:

SURPRISE! just for the sake for you fer, i'm updating! hahah.. taking a break now, i dunno how am i gonna survive through my As.. i don't think there's enough time, its like really study until cobwebs grow on you hair. Serious, you have to sit there the whole day without moving if you wanna finish your syllabus, keep rushin through my Tys. Sometimes, i don't even know whether my bro is comforting me or what, he says you're safe if you know your TYS, REALLY MEH? why am i getting that kinda results in school? I'll be happy if i can just get BBB, i'm keepin my fingers crossed for myself, hoping my brain works to its maximum capacity. Studying till the dead of night is sooo lonely, and i wanna slap and kick my mom for snoring so loudly. Excuuussseeee mee, i desperately need some sleep,even as i'm typing now, lethargy is slowly creepin up to my eyes..

How nice would it be if one can go on and on without sleep and without feeling tired at all? dear god, please grant me the gift of not needing sleep and not feeling tired at all, i would be sooo thankful! and also the gift of not needing food, because.... prom is comin! hahaah! Bloody hell, i don want to wear a maternity dress for prom. Just to let you know fer, i'm suffering! all libras hate hard work, that's absolutely true..

But, wa, if you think of what you can do after the a levels, it puts you right in a good mood. Here's a list of to dos after the A levels

1) dye my hair brown with golden highlights, rebond it and never to have fringe again. Its either doll fringe or ah lian long fringe.

2) Binge on all the good food for 1 day, hit the gym tread mill ( ok, easier said than done)

3) learn swimming

4) take my long long awaited kayak awards and join dragonboating ( no need to pay money, and free tanning somemore)

5) read ALL the magazines at Borders

6) watch Tv till the tv box cannot tahan

7) work at takashimaya office till february where i get my new year bonus and quit

8) buy a jack russell puppy and train it to be like a human, maybe name it johnny or... no idea yet, i think xiaoben would be a cute name for it, or cheebye kia

9) sleep till i die

10) start saving up for my university fees

damn it.. i forgot voluntary work at minds, nooooooo!

2006-10-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

NO ONE UPDATES.

wells, boring.

it's friday night tml and yeah, i am lifeless so i got no plans.

): ): ):

seriously i need to get used to the 4 hour sleep/day routine. i am still stuck in the 10 hour sleep/day sort of mode.

with that, i bid yu goodbye. bed beckons.

2006-10-21T13:45:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

JACQ i hope yu dont mind me changing the template.. it's not that i dont like the princess hours one.. it was really sweet and i love it. except for the really really small box, which sort of irritates me coz i cant read properly.

anyway, if yu still want the file.. i did save the codes in my com. so, get it from me if yu want it..

(:

aights people. it's been a week since i returned to school. things are fine and it feels good to meet old friends again.. and it also reminds me that i havent met HENG for eons.

i know yu guys are busy preparing for ur very very important A levels right now.. i dont really wanna disrupt ur studies by asking yu two out just to talk cock with me.

please study hard k! it's the last lap already! SPRINT! go for the As! yu guys are going to do well and get into your ideal course in university eh! =D

gimme a call if yu need to de-stress okay.. i will do my best to sing yu some songs and keep yu entertained for as long as yu need! hahaha..

anyway, i am in deep shit now. my outstanding phone bills are sky high coz i kept calling while i was in bangkok. and what's more! i still have yet to settle my bangkok trip's expenses! hahaha.. i am in so much debt that i think i either need 5 jobs right now or sell my ass to someone who can offer me a good price.

): ): ):

okay the last line was a joke. haha.. sometimes yu just gotta learn to take things in your own stride. haha.. i'm still spending like though i have a job now man.

guys, if yu know of any part time job openings, please let me know. i really dont wanna get sued by starhub. lol.

well.. other than landing myself into deep shit, nothing much has been happening in my life. it's still as mundane as ever. but recently, i do find myself thinking of the past.. (i know this line makes me sound damn old.. but hey, things that happened 2 years ago are considered the past right?)

recent happenings have led to some late night tears and rants in my diary.. sighs. things just happen without warning and there we are, left standing at the crossroads feeling like crap.

at least things didn't feel so bad last night when we all met.. it was sort of strange and i know our friendship had been strained by what happened that night.. it gets on my nerves knowing that we're feeling the same way and avoiding each other.

ahhh well.. i am going out to take a walk on this beautiful saturday afternoon and reflect on life.

2006-10-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

heng says:

this bloody haze is killing me! its irritating my eyes, making it watery and making me wheeze in the middle of the day. When is it gonna stop? like what huiiii huiiiiii said, everywhere's becoming like genting. sigh.. anyways, i'm really sorry i can't help him much. Dunno, just feel really guilty that i can't make a difference, hopefully he'll be the next poster boy of the SAF and get to live out his dreams and such. If news spread out that i offered to help him, those kaypos are gonna think i want his attention and stuffs, i DON'T. Its good to have big dreams, that's what makes life worth living for. Me? i just wanna get into NUS bioengineering, i know.. fat hope eh? looking at the integration questions today, machiam like lookin at indian language shit like that.. i'm really panicking you know, i feel so damn insecure of my mathematical ability. It just goes to show how slow my brain is. 14 or less days to A levels,how to win colin? hahaha.. i'd really love to see him drop his horse jaw. Byee!

2006-10-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline

I guess in an afternoon, i did like almost 25 quizs ?? And all of them are confusing me with analysasion. LOL anyway, i really wanna decorate the blog so got a sweet blogskin from goong. Hope u girls wont mind right?

Nothing much to update with life. Just merely studying.
I'm fine with it. i'm happy, i've found a cheap prom dress. found it. exactly. but still no money to buy. lol. take carrrres.

2006-10-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

heng says:

yeah! I love quizzes! i'm technically retarded la, i dunno how to copy and paste the answers here.
Anyways, wa lau, where got people post fake news in their blog one? how can you do that??? to think i'm a loyal reader of your blog!! I believed everything you blogged! Ya la ya la, i'm a rotten big mouth laa hor.. But it WAS funny wat, couldn't resist the temptation to tell my friend, note, only 1 friend. It really was funny what, haiyoh..

2006-10-11T01:47:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

haha.. heng yu're hopeless! 10 times a year... lol.

and well, boredom = quizzes!

YAY!

What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

woohoo, SPOT ON.

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(hahaha.. i wish.)

The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
(i'm your typical jack of all trades, master of none. lol)

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

hmm, not too bad. quite accurate too..

Are You Nosy?

Nosy Level: 50%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

hahaha.. YES.

Jealousy Test

Jealousy Level: 50%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousyYou easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"

hmm.. i guess i have to agree. who doesn't get jealous?

Cinderella

How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?
You tend to adopt traditional roles of a fine woman. You listen to what your husband tell you attentively and enjoy being guided and led by him.

HAHAHA.. okay. good for my future husband i guess... lol.

Steal It!

What are the causes of your conflicts with friends?
A map and a compass are a sign of seriousness. However, you often forget the time and place for your appointment with friends which bores them right? So, don't mix up your schedule and recheck it in order to follow the schedule correctly.

hey, this i dont agree okay.

A murder in your town

Here is the analysis: You are a big fan of Urban Legends. You like reading rumors in magazines and tabloids. You are determined to succeed in your study and career.

hahaha.. yes i do enjoy reading celebrities' rumours. they dont concern me but they're just interesting to read about. lol.

The Squirrel

Here is the analysis: You are very direct, which might freak them out. Something along the lines of "Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror?" might slip from your lips.

HAHAHA that'll be hilarious. but hey, i'm not THAT horrid.

Pick One

Here is the analysis:
Your future friend: You have a big sister confidence and leadership. So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help. You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends.

Your travel plan: In the future, you will often take overseas trips especially to modernized countries. You will get to explore Europe and North Asia like you always wanted.
(yes! europe!)

Your future financial status: You are a big spender! You always spend on friends and luxury goods without feeling guilty. No matter how much you earn, you churn to match it. Your credit cards get thinner and thinner from frequent swipes. The figure in your bank account is not what you enjoy seeing.
(lol. even when i'm not spending, the figure in my bank is still not what i enjoy seeing.)

The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around.
(awww...)

The Rain

This will tell about your marriage.
You are far too young to think about wedding. Enjoy ten or more years before thinking of walking through the aisle.

oh wells.....

Who is your dream guy?

Here is the analysis: According to your answers; if you are not kidding, you are too complicated. Sorry, we are unable to offer the analysis. Press Back button on you browser, check ONE question that you were not completely sure and try again with a different answer that you think it would be correct.

LOL!
okay, this is the ultimate analysis.

okay girls, go entertain yourself if yu're bored. haha.. quite fun and the tests are not that long.

i like...... (:

2006-10-10T11:05:00.000+08:00

hweeheng:

since term's ending, might as well give some closure. Jac, i never regretted messagin them, but i do regret messagin him. As long as i can answer to myself, i'm fine with it. I'm not naive, i've learnt loads of lessons. Like, be responsible for what you've done and also to say sorry if you're really in the fault, no matter who the other party is. But, er.. if the other party still hates you, then i also dunno what else to do la.

First and foremost, Shah. OK, i'm laughing as i'm typing this, but i seriously meant my apologies. I know i always accuse you of things, the first one i blame will be you. The previous tagging incident, i thought it was you too. Sorry la k, don't take it to heart. I called you midget, don't take it to heart too k? And regarding the OTHER MATTER, that, i'm really really sorry. If i were you, i'll probably personally confront myself and give myself hair-dryer treatment. You said you don't bear grudges, so well, that's good. Sorry! Apology accepted?

Secondly, to leonard, sorry for shouting " fire fire!" . For a second of fun, i crushed your ego. Sorry, don't take it to heart, i personally said sorry to you already. Sorry! It's not a bad thing to be posted there, every guy who serves NS is noble, regardless of where they're posted to, as long as they serve their country. Even criminals who committed heinous crimes but served NS before are considered noble, but then they go do stupid things la..

So, that's all i supposed. 25 days to "A" levels, work your ass off for it! Good luck all! Byee!

2006-10-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

hweeheng says:

staying at home is damn nice, but the bed and fridge are big distractors. Anyways, JC's coming to an end this friday, i definitely don't miss the lessons but i sure miss my classmates and their wackiness. My goodness, i won't be seeing them anymore after the 'A's, but, well, people always have to move on, don't they?

Sooo much things have happened this year, but nonetheless, the good memories still remain. I'm not saying those flaming were good memories la, i mean those spent gossiping with good frens, playing PSP while hui and elson fiddle with the hall piano, skipping lectures ( sadly, i never missed one this year), slacking and enjoying air con in the library, night study, OBS, and the recent night walk around the school track. Funny how a mere school track can hold so much memories, used to complain i'm sick of running on it, flunked my napfa run on it, but yesterday night was totally different. We were just savoring the memories, how we pretended to be running when the teacher turned around and strolled the moment the teacher turned her back on us.

How elson sneered that even when he walked, he moves faster than we run, hahaha.. its just the little things that hold so much sentimental values. Sigh, see now, we won'tever have to wear the macdonald tie again, oh by the way, applause please! the indian teacher told me i broke the school's record for latecoming this year, hahahah.. 10 times! 9 times last year, grand total 19 times. thank you thank you, you're far too kind!

2006-10-09T15:39:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline says: I'm not angry at all. Just feeling disturbed over the recent matters. Studies .. Fcuking pple's attitudes towards me. I guessed it's menopause too. I dunno why pple love reacting in the unexpected way. Humanity is smth i need to work hard to adapt to but today my horoscope says smth diff. Yup, my voice shldn't kept within the four walls. I do wonder st times, why do you have to message them. It's still not yr fault, we're young and naive. I still owe shah a hell of apologies. I know he may still bear grudes. i'm sry. Whatever that happeneds, we still shld nt be related to them in anyway. Put everything in the past & move on. Nevertheless, enjoy princess hours! I just need to study .. whether there's company or not. Learning to love to study at home (=

2006-10-08T16:16:00.000+08:00

heng says:

I share the same sentiments too. This blog has always been meant for the 3 of us to read, and nothing else. I just wanted to say that, i'm sorry, to both fer and jac. If i hadn't messaged that somebody, nothing like this would've happened. No flaming, no tagging, no nothing.. So ya, and seriously, to others as well ( not fer and jac), i know you've heard stories about me, and about what i've done, which was to message that somebody. Those things you've tagged, you see things from your own perspective, so you judge me, there's nothing wrong with it. Even if you hate me like anything, i don't blame you. Its your own perspective. People have freedom of choice and views, so fer, don't be angry with them anymore. Oh, by the way, i went to vivocity today, wa... actually, there's nothing much there. Byee!

2006-10-08T03:22:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

i know things haven't been going smoothly for yu guys.. i presume it's the stress and bad haze that's making all of us insane?

anyway jacq, i wanna clear some misunderstandings.. i am neither angry about this whole blog issue nor blaming anyone for all that has happened.

i decided to remove the tagboard because i dont see a point in leaving it there for people to spam. in the first place, the tagboard's meaningless because we dont have to tag, we simply blog. as for the tagging issue, yes i was furious initially.. but i guess it died down..

in any case, when i stop seeing those hate-tags, i start thinking that the 3 of us, we are the only readers of this blog and i feel better when i write my entries too. (:

between our everyday interaction, there's bound to be some misunderstandings or miscommunication.. dont take things to heart and do learn to accept things with an open mind.

sometimes, we speak harsh words without knowing it.. we only realise it after witnessing the reaction of the other party. but by then.. the words had already been put across. there's no way we can reform our sentences..

i speak to my mom rudely all the time.. sometimes even taking her for granted. only when i end the conversation with her, i realise how impolite my tone was. usually when that happens, i'm already out of the house or hung up already..

then came one day, i watched episode 07 of My Name Is Kim Sam Soon. she was talking about her last conversation with her father at the airport and she regretted what she had said.. now, if she was given another chance, she would have told her father that the rice cakes are delicious, that she will come back healthy and to take care of himself.

so, whenever i'm about to say something horrid, i ask myself: "what if this is the last time i am going to talk to her?"...

it kinda works and i'll always put things in a nicer manner afterwards. so, drama serials ain't bad afterall. (: this way, things wont end up bad and we wont regret that much right? haha..

it's been really long since we last met up and had fun.. i dont know when's the next time we can meet again.. i'll be kept busy once school starts. let's find a day to meet up before my semester starts aights?

(:

2006-10-05T22:03:00.000+08:00

heng:

thanks fer, my dad is still.. not recovering.. dunno what to do. These taggers can actually make fun of someone's dad just because they hate her, do u noe how to spell the word karma? i feel disgusted.

2006-10-05T17:38:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

might as well remove the tagboard and make love.

2006-10-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

sighs.. what has become of our blog today?

all these hate tags have transformed into porn tags. what can i say?

jacq, cheer up aights! i'm sure your friend will recover! it's all fated i guess... we cant do anything to change the fate of the ill-fated girl.. even though i wish that the girl's disease was ah hock's or johnny's or anyone one of those hateful taggers, i cannot do anything to help. so, this is how helplessness feels like.

not just this, heng's father too.. i really dont know what to say or do to make things better for her.. sighs... this is really bad.

know what, i believe in KARMA, what goes around comes around.

yes, do whatever yu wanna do right now.. it will come back to yu someday. (read: soon)

as much as i detest those hate taggers for being so judgemental and pornographic, i cant do anything to make their lives miserable.. and seriously, rather than spending time rebutting them, i might as well spend more time with heng and jacq..

life is short and unpredictable, live life like there's no tomorrow.

2006-10-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline:

dance as though no one is watching you
love as though you have never been hurt before
sing as though no one can hear you
live as though heaven is on earth

Today, Min ci asked me: Jacq, what kinda of funeral do you want. I kept quiet and start pondering over the matter ... why funeral? The answer is clear when every human being must go through birth and death. How about a white wedding? That should what all girls are dreaming for ... with your prince charming. Yeah, dream on. Love between mars n venus will not last. I no longer believe.

I may be sitting right in front of the computer, pulling every strands of my black hair and trying to give out a reason why all these things happened. I don't know. They are not fascinating nor something nice to be commented about. Why did that happened? Maybe pple deserve the bad outcome in one way or another, but the innocents shldn't be taking part in the play. I really wish i cld surrender all to God.

A young pretty girl, contacting such a disease, I don't know what can i do to lighten any burden held by her family. She still have a bright future and here i am, wasting my time blogging, feeling angry abt what pple blog .. when Jen is trying hard to fight against the cancer. I really wanna ask God, does she deserve it ? Her long silky black hair is not longer there to be admired at, her radiant smile is covered with the wearness of all the therapy treatments.
Same age. Both of us still 18 yrs old. WHY her ?
She already have to start counting back her time, yet i'm wasting mine. As I'm trying to find time to visit her, she always decline my offer. She wants me to concentrate on A's instead of wasting time. I don't wanna lose such a good friend who taught me the importance of life. Jen's fave quote is "at least i survived.." She once said, no matter how far people tried to pull you down, humilate you, let you down, just tell yrself that there's more to come, because u're sitll breathing. Nv forget to breathe.
Almost broke down on the bus journey back, her condition just worsen. Can someone tell me what to do? I'm helpless. I'm clueless. I need a direction. yet i'm not a God who can prolong Jen's life. I cant even do much to my own family and studies. I did so badly for prelims, i'm only left with 29 days. My dad and mommy are like some ... whatever. Don't even have a perfect hm, not to talk about perfect life. Why do husbands always let down their wives? Why do they make promises over the vows which cannot be fulfilled? Is marriage the grave for love? Why am i gonna do? How can i help my mommy and the poor sister who suck at her hm? br>Heng's dad just got admitted to the hospital. Some gastric prob. I wonder how her family is doing.

Why is all my friends ard me going thru hardships?
Can i just see a little sunshine ?
I see no meaning for these endless obstacles.
I'm a weakling, i can't even face up to the probs surfacing.
I really want to hide all the truth.
Too much.
No one deserves to die. No one have the right to take away her life. No one shld remove the love once that was between my parents. No one shld snatched away my love ones. No one deserves love but my family. No one shld be left behind. No one is supposed to die without a smile. I don't wanna think about all these.
Just contiune to live strongly.
Breathe hard.

29 days to A' level :(

2006-10-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

i am getting bored of those tags already. they never change what they say. it's always the same old thing.

BORING.

think of something to pique my interest baby!

2006-10-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

hwee heng:

You said you know you're short, i know its a fact that i'm fat, i don't deny that. We're on par now. Maybe i shouldn't have called your friend a lackey, send my apologies to that friend of yours, tell him i'm sorry. Please get your facts right, i don't seek for attention, i don't ask for people to read my blog, nobody's begging you to read it. Anyways, please be more civilised if you reckon you want to continue tagging. Be good and study hard, A levels is just round the corner. Good luck for it, and tell your friends to stop wasting time tagging snide and rude comments. Thanks ah, have a great year ahead.

2006-10-01T14:52:00.000+08:00

hwee heng:

You seriously have talent in art, i mean it. I've seen your art works, they're cool, 7 deadly sins. Why waste time doing all this? Prepare well for your paper 2, don't disappoint your teacher.

2006-10-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

i have to rant about this before it drives me mad.

MY MANAGER SUCKS.

he's always emo mo mo. yikes. work basically depends on his mood. when he's in a bad mood, all of us are in deep shit. EVERYONE becomes a scapegoat for his faults, his lousy management and even the poor business.

he's soooo full of himself, thinking that he can do everything allllllll by himself. right, so what's the point of hiring all the staff ah? for all of us to stand there and look pretty ah?

he cant pronounce words properly or remember names.
"look, the think is....." - he meant, thing.
"come for low call..." - he meant, roll call.
"marissa" - her name is melissa.
"kevin" - my dear cousin's name is kelvin.
there's more... i just cant remember them now.

ugghs.

oh yeah, the most recent one. i forgot to pass him my sechdule for next week and damn! he didnt even bother to call me up to ask me, he just decided to put me off schedule.

right, since he has plentiful of full timers now, he can afford to try to teach me a lesson by not putting me on schedule this week and hopefully, i'll be good and give my schedule punctually for next week.

i'd love to tell him "try harder lah"... i'm already intending to pass him my resignation letter once i get my first paycheck. (: (: (:

in any case, i'm glad for the unexpected 1 week holiday. haha i dont have to see his ugly face for a week.

but i really like the rest of the staff there.. well, at least most of them. they've been such a joy to work with.. haha i specially enjoy talking to troy, this colleague who's damn vulgar but in a humourous manner.

he's intending to quit. i hope all the management trainees join him and stage a revolution! woots!

hahaha.. okay, i got to go. so today, my closing line is also my favourite curse for now.

i hope that a vagina will grow on my manager's head!

2006-09-29T02:26:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

tsk tsk tsk. what did those young punks do to agitate heng again eh?

just let them be..

believe in KARMA. what goes around, comes around.

one day they'll learn their lesson..

anyway my dearest heng, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

hahaha i love yu baby! (: yu're 18 already and i'm proud of yu! haha.. sighs i seem to be the only 17-year-old amongst my friends. .. tsk. but never mind, i have jacq's ic. hahaha..

one day we bring yu out and have some fun aights! (: (: (:

Bunch of fools..

2006-09-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

heng says:

sorry ah, so much things to blog today. Right, you! Short guy from S30 last year, taking art, trying to act like a rugger hanging out with the ruggers! Surname Yeo! How dare you make fun of -----? What's up with asking a lackey of yours coming over to our table and faking you want -----'s signature? If you sincerely are a fan of -----'s and want his signature but too shy to do so, then its ok. But i doubt so. Giggling like a bunch of secondary school girls sitting there watching the show where your lackey request a signature from -----.. My goodness, you're already 19! old enough to get jailed! Its not just you, short guy, your friends too, your clique.. Can anything get through that thick skull of yours? At least someone's got a record deal and gets to cut an album, YOU? Do you have it?

What the bloody hell, again?

2006-09-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

Heng says:

Ha, no names mentioned here. I think you're smart enough to figure out who's who. Yawn.. spread la spread la, dun even know if you're telling the truth. Did my so called classmates, because they were only 3 there, only 1 knew( i told him myself), asked you or you volunteered to elaborate the information to that particular classmate of mine who told you what's the money on the table for alone? Eh friend, i was already leading a peaceful life after the blog thing ended, everything's back to normal, i can really don't let such things hinder everything i do and be happy again and now you start telling them the matter again? Do you know you're making my blood boil? I mean, if they really ask you what happened, then, ok, never mind. Don't say sorry for things you've already done.

What's done cannot be undone. No matter how much sorries you say, it ain't gonna help. You already did what you apologized for. Sorry is not worth anything, its merely a word with no meaning to me and to you. What's your motive for telling more people? Have more laughs, get more people to laugh at what i've done so they'll judge me critically, feel important yourself that you know juicy gossips? You're so ironic, say you don wish to bring up the matter den????

You don't even personally know me, what's up with all these? Judge me for all you want, hmm.. maybe my classmate already found out about my blog from you! god knows. Why do this have to happen the day before my birthday? wa thanks eh, such a nice birthday present.. thanks soooooo much. Put yourself in my shoes everytime your mouth feels itchy, then think from my perspective, would you want such things to happen? Never wish me happy birthday never mind, still come and do all this.. Seriously, reflect on yourself boy, you're older than me.

2006-09-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

hwee heng:

love for the cute guy your ass ah.. Only love between friends, family love and the love for the things you like and want to pursue for life exist. Love for guys or the hot chicks do not exist, can that kinda stupid love be used to feed yourself when you're hungry? That is called crush, use your brain.. We're all still young, there's no such thing as i lub you you lub me, save your breath till you're officially married. Sheesh, sometimes huh, .... never mind, i shall hold my tongue and don't do any flaming

End of prelims

2006-09-21T14:43:00.000+08:00

heng says:

phew, finally today's last paper, i seriously reckon paper 1 and 2 are in German! Paper 3, hmm.. few of the questions are in English, the rest i think its in indian. But its easier then mid year, all the more it makes the situation scarier, what if A levels is much more difficult?? I've got to be best friends with my ten year series from now on, they've got to be my daily essentials.

Turning 18 in 8 more days, don't u read here anymore? won't u wish me happy birthday? i bet its worth more than any of my presents. So anyways, I was reading this kayak star award on the SCF website, wa... damn cool sia! During OBS, we had this kayaking expedition across the island, into the swamp, out of it and back into the sea. I tell you, it really was the time of my life, even life after O levels cannot be compared to that! though wee wee and i had loads of arguments about the strokes, smarty pants ah you.. at least i didn't paddle all the way and whammed into the bushes right? I know what's the meaning of steering and i can differentiate left and right. Capsizing is fun, rescuing is even more fun but climbing into the kayak is not fun.

I practically got hooked on it, when you've finished star 1, you take star 2 then you can go for the coaching level, how cool is that? being a coach at the age of 19 and you get to tekan those younger ones taking the assessment! The fortune teller says I'll go into teaching, as much as i fantasise about my plans... i can't swim.. Lame. Oh oh, after star 2, you go all the way up to star 4 where you kayak in open rivers then you can further upgrade your coaching levels, wow.. Highest is star 5, in the open sea, exposed to mother nature and her moods. Someday, you'll wanna get a kayak of your own with your name printed on it. A kayak coach is the coolest, apart from dragonboat coaches (they're relatively shorter, beats me. ).

Blather, if you're reading this, i hope you still remember about the blood donation drive you told me about on my birthday, i'm looking forward to it! Particularly, the kayak star 1 thing the day after! DONT FORGET IT! Byee!

2006-09-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline:

YESTERDAY WAS SOONKUEY'S BIRTHDAY. 180906.
today is 190706,
it's been exactly TWO months that i've last seen him.
WHINE* WHINE*
i seriously cant shake him off my mind. yesterday my entire soul seems to be in lala wonderland. i haven forget him. i cant.
i seriously MISSES him.

why did i give you up after being crazy for seven months?
why did i give you up, just because i feel that someone else can replace me in yr heart and she will be able to give you more than i do? why did i give you up, because i feel that i'm incapable of loving you? WHY?
i wish for some understanding too.
but you hate me now.
like how every single bitch and bastard do.
you hate me!
jimmy hates me!
because i purposely triggered his nerves
he's moving on with michelle,
putting jacq far, far, away.
jacq is thrown alone, here! pity me! go ahead! whatever!
( it's nt like i dun attract guys, i reject pple too k ?
having a face filled-w-pimps dont mean tt i'm at losing end )

[ To ah bungs ] :
It's seriously not easy for me to let go of him. just try not mentioning him unless i do. i also don't want to. dont bother abt me, i get emo here and then. just intro me more guys. whatever .. friendships, like what fer says, like how my family & friends love me, boys do not matter.

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Main pt of today ::

being to be coped in that kind of horrible place all day.
facing disgusting piglets yucking non-stop all day long SUCKS! i must get out and get a life!
What's wrong with those @#@!??^%&##2$%? people ....
Dont they hv a life?
Dont they feel disgusted when they face the mirror?
They feel gd, discriminating human beings n mockin at pple, whatever!
so what if i'm worse off than you in any case?
yea, i dun hv a good, handsome, STUPID boyfriend.
i dun hv a cell-less brain like yrs! u are so smart! " SO "
btw, i'm graduating this yr (:
[if u hv no idea abt it]
Wuahaha!
i dun wanna curse you but it's a fact! who ask u! laugh at me, somemore! laugh la! contiune laughing at ME.
u will watch yrself fall right from great heights.
i wun not get A.
so what if u do ? it's yr life. puke.

The Dash

2006-09-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

heng says:

Firstly, i found out this from zl's blog, please ah please ah, don't flame me. I like reading your blog, and i found this meaningful so i copied it for other people to read it as well. Please don't bear any grudges, be less quick to anger, treat each other with respect and more often wear a smile..Thanks! Hopefully this applies to the others as well.

Watch it at : thedashmovie.com/

The Dash - Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning..to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive in earth
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
the cars..the house...the cash..
what matters most is how we live and love..
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard;
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you will never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough,
to consider what's true and real..
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives..
like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile..
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy is being read..
with your life's actions to rehash..
Would you be proud of the things they say..
about how you spend your dash?

2006-09-19T03:31:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

hey! jacq yu kuku, yu just made me tear! i was about to cry when i hugged yu just now la..

aww... i'll miss yu guys too! dont worry, i'm gonna be using autoroam.. sms me to tell me yu miss me okay!

but aiya, it's just a week.. by then it's just nice.. yu guys will finish ur prelims and we can go celebrate right?

(: (: (:

life is so hectic and i dont usually get the chance to tell yu guys how much yu guys mean to me.. even when i get to do it, it's usually online through the blog or testimonials..

SERIOUSLY, i love yu guys! in a best friends way of course! =D

we dont hang out as much as before.. we're all busy busy people nowadays. quite sad eh.. we're all so busy till we dont have time to celebrate birthdays! ... ):

A levels are gonna be over really really soon and yu guys will be free for a good 9 months! yays! then we can meet up as often as possible!

yepps, i'm pretty excited about my bangkok trip tml. dont worry, i'll look out for gifts for yu two! (: yu two are on top of my people-to-buy-gifts-for-list! hahaha..

most of the time, i dont realise how fortunate and loved i am. suddenly today after meeting up so many people... i realised that i have so many people who loves and cares for me, all my family and friends.

i guess i should stop whining about how i dont have a boyfriend to love. haha.. i have sooooooooo many people to love and care for!

hahaha.. who cares if i dont have a boyfriend or a dating partner... so long as my family and friends are around, life is wonderful enough! (:

muacks to my sweethearts! =*

2006-09-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline says:

I just bid goodbye to miss goh,
wishing her with lotsa of fun on her bangkok trip.
I love you. I miss you.
Really looking forward to celebrating heng's birthday, all together, the 3 of us!
Yup, cause that will marks the end of my ART.
Woooh, so much these days and it will soon mark the end of my college days.
Really looking forward,
never to regret.

Miss Goh,
take care,
beware of the weather.
WRAP YRSELF, in case of seducing thais or terriorists!!

bring along amulet, scripture, sutra, cross, bible ... (just in case)

Really do take care of yrself.
i fely lyk crying, just now.
Cant bear without you !! Ah bung !!
Call me when u return !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leaving on a jet plane

2006-09-18T10:14:00.000+08:00

Heng says:

I noe you're leaving tomorrow fer, its a pity i can't send you off. Firstly, I've got chem paper, secondly, i totally dunno how to go to the airport. Hahahaha.. Do take good care of yourself there alright? I strongly urge you to bring a knife or some weapon along when you go out at night, trust me, it'll come in handy! Or bring jac and my photo to ward off evil!!! Remember to get uh-hem and my uh-hem =) I'll miss you, the first thing u do when u come back to singapore is to call me up! remmber eh!

11 more days to my 18th birthday!! Counting down to 29th september!! Whoever reads this, you HAVE to tag and wish me happy birthday, its basic courtesy, thanks so much. But then again, an 18th birthday is just like any other birthday, cut the cake, sing the birthday song, eat the cake then that's it. Funny how birthday seems meaningless as you grow older, i think 18 is abit old already la..

Physics and chemistry left! yes! Its such a torture to sit through the paper with limited knowledge in your brain and then when you look left and right, you see people frantically scribbling away. I get scared when i see that. But sometimes, shit happens to certain people too, hahaha.. this poor guy, his calculator either ran out of battery or cranked out half way through the exam had to have his replaced, the teachers were practically amused by him, let alone me. What's even better, he kept droppin his calculator and water bottle on the floor, tsk tsk tsk..

Math started at 8am, ended at 11am, i slept at around 930 plus 10am. I f inished pure math, did 1 or 2 statistics then i slept. I totally didn't know what the question wants from me, ahh.. am i stupid or stupid?! I couldn't keep my eyes open either, so i slept. And the nap was really shiok, hahahaha.. hopefully mom won't be waiting for my results slip with a weapon in her hands. This prelims is really draining me out! Wished i had taken biology instead of physics, I'm good at memory work but suck at using brain to think, sigh..

Gonna bathe and leave for my battle with physics, byee!

the photo studio

2006-09-18T02:32:00.000+08:00

fer says ..

okay, i'll be leaving for bangkok on tuesday. (:

miss me my dears! i'll miss yu guys aights!

haha.. wait till i come back and we'll go out soon enough k! we still have to celebrate yu guys' birthdays!

muacks!

gravity

2006-09-15T12:59:00.000+08:00

i did some minor touch up here and there.. e.g. the archives, time and the cbox.

i am quite anal and nitpicky when it comes to these little details.

(:

take care babes!

2006-09-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Heng says:

woooooooo.. i like the new skin! the previous one was abit.. well, brings back bad memories, and honestly, abit weird. Hahaha.. i finally searched for _ _ _ _ _, sia la.. good lookin???I've seen him around everyday. The captain is so much better, serious, this _ _ _ _ _ looks like a goofball, and he seriously needs a bath or some scrubbing, hahaha.. I stand by the captain!

So i searched for wu yue, got really disappointed, didn't turn out to be what i thought he was. Dunno how to describe the feeling, its just.. disgusted or insecure? I don't like the feeling, disapointment and insecurity sucks to the core.

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