Friday, December 15, 2006
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well, I deleted the previous entry. That person reads this blog, I don't want her to come screaming at me after she realizes its her. I hate confrontations, its not that I'm a coward, I mean, well, ok maybe I am. Because I wouldn't know what to do and say to her, it'll probably hurt her and me too. Worse, she won't accept it. She'll turn the tables on me. Stupid, really. I'd rather suffer and complain just to avoid being confronted by her. Thanks anyway jac, my problems are endless.. I'll be fine after complaining.
Shit man, time fries. Next Monday I'll be starting training at Citibank, in some ulu place. Now, I regret accepting the job. The money is tempting but I just want to slack and watch tv at home, you have no idea how nice the afternoon tv shows are, especially The Ellen Degeneres Show. Just in case you dunno who she is, she's the one who voiced over "Dory" in Finding Nemo. I think her audience are a damn lucky bunch! By going to her show, apart from being entertained by her humor, you get free gifts like a Nikon digital camera, a Dixie Chicks CD, and a Zune mp3 player that isn't even released in the market yet, how good is that?
Right, so if I fail the training, I'll just get 4 days of pay, I mean if there is even any pay to be given at all. Its good to be sacked, but on the contrary, I'll kaobei why I should be the one to get laid off. Sigh... being a student forever is the best, honest. I don't know anybody there, and I really hate making new friends, if unnecessary.. and i suck at that too.
But then again, some people want to work but they are not allowed to do so. Because they're either physically or mentally disabled, or they suffer from some illness. I watched "against all odds" yesterday, its about this guy called Jeremy Goh, he suffers from tourette's syndrome. Just in case you didn;t catch it, here's a summary: Its a neurological condition, whereby he jerks his limbs , shouts, blinks his eyes, jerk his neck and shrug his shoulders involuntarily. He has this problem of hitting his chin with his knuckles, as a result his knuckles developed another layer of skin, I think it must have hurt alot. He has to tape his keyboard so that he doesn't hit his keyboard away, sew up his pockets to refrain from tearing it, wear jersey material clothing so that he doesn't tear it as well.
They were filming him sitting on a bench in front of orchard MRT station, and he suddenly twitches his leg and shouts, this stupid indian woman who walked past just shot him a filthy disgusted look. Eh woman, be thankful people don't do that to you. Anyway, Jeremy's bosses laid him off because of this condition, his girlfriend's parents objected to their relationship because of it as well. But fortunately, he gets to work for the church by being a mentor to mentally disabled adults, because his boss treats him as someone special and not a freak, unlike his previous boss. Despite his condition, he gets to make a difference to people, and he's grateful for that.
Jeremy gets taunted and bullied by his classmates when he was in secondary school, even his teachers doesn't understand his condition, they put him outside of class. Classmates say mean things to him like how his parents did bad things, that's why he was borned. Now you know why some people kill themselves because of such bullies. About 1 in a 100 are borned with Tourette's syndrome. The point of him agreeing to do the documentary is to create awareness among Singaporeans, because apparently they don;t understand tourette's syndrome. Its alright to laugh at people who's fat, or ugly or whatsoever. But the worse thing you can do is to laugh at those with disabilities. You don't understand the condition, you don't suffer from it, so you have no rights to laugh at them.
So the next time if you ever see Jeremy, smile to him or maybe ask how his day went. I wouldn't do it because I suck at making conversations and smiling, I might just spoil his day for him. Everybody wants to make a difference in this world, doesn't it? He wants to. And so do I. I'm 18 and there's alot of things I want to accomplish in this life. Well, if i ever have a bright future and i end up making big bucks, I'd really like to start something up for tourette's sufferers so they wouldn't have to face rejections from employers. Maybe after watching a few other episodes of the documentary, I'd want to start something up for people suffering from other conditions as well. Up till now,I'm still unsure of what I want to do, I just dunno. Hahaha.. I tried voluntary work, I screwed up, so its best I just provide the funds and let other more capable people do the work.
But if i end up making no bucks at all, then, well.. let's get to that later.
Threesome's company8:11 AM
